Either one will have the it’s own explanation though. But it’s funny to see a lot of relationship messing this up. Couple of night before I came out Puchong, I talked to friends who have had broke up experience, that include me as well How many of you did stupid thing when you’re just in love or wanna be in love on a relationship? Buying flowers (I never did this), buying all bills (Yes I did), near non-stop calling (I did. Twice, dammit!) or perhaps, borrow money just to buy a gift (I swear to God I never did this)?

When young, loving IS a sign of trust. I am damn sure this relationship gonna work so I spend all the energy, time, money to make sure it work on her as well. Some called it as investment, but it’s near, very near to investment. Buying term life insurance online quotes become so easy and compulsory, even making love become soul exchanging instead of a simple touching organ exercise. Trust is the deal on young puppy love, and I’m still loving it, if only I have time on it When I was in this relationship now, I know I need to spend something and perhaps restore something that I shouldn’t. After a few years in a relationship, I started to think twice… Maybe it’s because the relationship getting mature or the mind getting mature, love suddenly become loving. I’m guessing I’m on the right track now.

I give because I love (Sound so geli for me now), so I give in and give up (Something only though ). I give my time and my energy to make sure this relationship works as it should be; I give up the time fooling around outside to make sure she knows I care for her (when with her); I give up my messy habit to make sure she can live with me and a lot more to go. That is the giving is loving I mean when I don’t see it when I was young and naive. This is investment that people usually say. The different is that when young and naive, I don’t think much, everything is focus on a pointless point.

What the fuck, why the hell am I writing such thing now?